The Lie:

The Beginning

Early on I was placed into a job where I felt insecure about being the best fit. Only a couple of years in, I held a role where others were more qualified, and I created a narrative in my head that everyone else in the company was questioning my readiness and worthiness for the opportunity. I recognize now that I was projecting my own insecurities onto these people I was sure were judging me, but that’s not what it felt like at the time. I worried constantly about being exposed as unqualified, and I had this crazy certainty that others were critical of my every move. I knew logically that being insecure didn’t serve me. That logic, though, was challenged by the ridiculous worry of a little girl from years earlier whose subconscious thoughts still found a way to voice lies. The name calling from fifth grade wouldn’t give way to the accomplishments of this grown adult. As much as you think it’s you against the world, in these moments when you try to break away from the insecurities of your past, it truly ends up being you against yourself.